Okay, so first I have to say — I’ve never created a website like this before, or written down and reflected on my feelings like this. I’m not a cold person, but I’ve heard more than once that I tend to keep my emotions to myself. But with you, it’s different — and this trip to Antalya is definitely a milestone for me. I can say without a doubt: you are my person. I’m also endlessly grateful to Gizem for letting us stay with her. It felt like she was part of this journey too. Her opinion means a lot to me, and it made me so happy that she 100% supports us and gave you her full approval. So you are officially approved by Gizem ☺︎✓. The last time I was in Antalya, I was with her, and we were both at a strange point in our lives. 2024 changed a lot for me. I hadn’t been in touch with Gizem for quite a while, but we found our way back to each other — and I found my way back to myself too. She went through a lot in 2024 as well, but we both felt that something was about to change. She was heading to Australia, and I was going to Russia. We sat on the balcony in Antalya and talked all night about life — how unpredictable it is, but how, in the end, everything somehow makes sense. Of course, at that time, I had no idea just how right we were. I remember when we were at the airport — I was flying to Sochi and she was heading to Switzerland. That was the moment I wrote to you on Instagram and told you I was coming to Russia. So Gizem has been part of this story from the very beginning. So, just like before, our reunion in Antalya started at the airport — and the excitement was huge. We went straight to get food… well, after you finished your business calls.

They say people who laugh a lot live longer — well then, I guess we’re immortal. I’ll always remember this day as one of the funniest ever. We couldn’t stop laughing — whether it was, you testing your allergies again, turkish people selling spies, the violin player deafening us with his performance, you making me extra fat in a panorama picture or striking a sexy pose with my bag. One thing’s for sure: I want to live a long life — with you.

If you laugh that much, you’ve got to eat well too. So we walked across the whole city to get Mexican food — and what can I say? It was so worth it. The michelada was absolutely amazing.

43!!! And 26. A 17-year age gap. To be honest, it did occupy my mind at the beginning. It wasn’t a problem, but it did make me think — until I realized: it’s meant to be this way. I used to believe you had to know your partner’s entire life story before you could truly be with them. But now, I think differently. We both have a past, and we’ve both been through things, but in the end, what matters most is the present and the future. I feel like I know you — and the longer we’re together, the more I’ll learn about your past too. But nothing needs to be forced. It doesn’t even cross my mind to interrogate you, because I know you’re a good person. And fate clearly wanted us to meet exactly when we did. If we had met earlier, or if the age gap had been smaller, maybe it wouldn’t have worked at all. Because timing is everything. Once I understood that, all the chaos in my head just cleared up. In the beginning, I worried a lot about the whole job situation. I couldn’t understand why I got rejected by my previous job — it didn’t make any sense, because I basically had it in the bag. But eventually, I understood that it had to happen this way. A permanent position wouldn’t make sense — it would just tie me to Switzerland. It’s funny how we’re both flexible with our time, and that’s exactly what allows us to travel and meet each other. And it can’t be a coincidence that I finished my studies and immediately went to Russia because my grandmother got seriously ill, which in a way tied me back to Russia. And honestly — I loved it. I’ve always felt that, one day, I might have a future in Russia. I can’t explain it, but that feeling, that sense of knowing, has always been there inside me. You really nailed it when you said you're not wearing rose-colored glasses. Even though everything sometimes feels almost unreal — like fate brought us together, like it’s straight out of a fairytale — I still feel like we’re both staying grounded and realistic. My feelings for you didn’t come as some overwhelming explosion in the beginning that fades over time. No — with you, it’s been a steady, growing kind of love. A healthy kind of love — with both heart and mind involved.

Normally, I find it really hard to choose gifts for someone. But with you, it was incredibly easy. It's honestly amazing how naturally everything came together. We share the same interests — whether it’s boxing, sports, sauna, humor, good food, or traveling. Sure, you’ve got a 17-year head start ☺︎, but it’s kind of crazy how you’ve already done so many of the things I’ve always dreamed of doing. You’re going to show me how to fish. We’re going to go to a rock concert together — something that’s been on my bucket list forever. You’ll show me Cuba. I just know I can experience everything with you, because we share the same interests.

I’ve finally found someone who wants to experience the same kind of adventures I do. We’re not the all-inclusive vacation type — and I absolutely love that! “Lisa, come with me to Dombay!” — “Okay.” Driving a manual car through the narrow streets of Antalya? No problem for you. Stopping by the side of the road to pick oranges? Of course. Climbing up to a treehouse just to enjoy the view? Naturally. Rafting? Absolutely — even if it wasn’t nearly as wild as we would’ve liked.

Despite all the adventures, I always feel safe with you. I know you look out for me and protect me. Although… I did have a few doubts when you made that graceful exit off the boat — with the car keys and your phone ☺︎.

On our last day, we went for a bike ride, relaxed by the sea, had coffee, and simply enjoyed the moment. Of course, we had to go back to the Mexican place one more time and have Micheladas!

Our trip to Antalya is coming to an end, and we're enjoying the last few hours by the waterfall. But the sadness is limited, because we had a beautiful time together and we know that we've found each other.

You are loving, attentive, caring, you plan experiences, you're spontaneous, brave, funny, intelligent, responsible, you make decisions, you always make me feel good, and you have so much masculine energy that I can truly be in my feminine energy. You respect and accept me — and I could list so many more things. But not even a thousand words could describe how good you make me feel. You give me a sense of home. Even if we have to say goodbye again, I know that one day, we’ll be flying home together. Of course, there are still a few hurdles to overcome before that happens. Like… how am I supposed to explain to my dad that I have a sugar daddy and I’m moving to Russia ☺︎? Well, one step at a time. Together, we can overcome anything.